Beautiful things

the tormented "homeland"

a somebody

5:03am

:)

5:04am

that was "it"

an old lover that is out to taunt me

to fill my lust with fast regret

'm having a farewell to my apartment party tonight you should totally come

well i'm chillin at homage

you know

right around the block from brians

looking up at my wooden ceilings

hearing my niece singing in the background

my mom ranting on the phone 

my stepdad watching baseball.

my boombox polydroning and monoexisting.

Write here. right now.

colored T.V. (s)

Clever we all aren't when you have a strong view.

Carefully we keep ourselves from past tunes.

Nothing can replace them. Nothing ever will.

Deeply we fall for things we over thought.

Slightly/Slytly we brush the top

to

avoid over thinking beforing making seeking

 sought.

Slighly/Slyly

I could love and I could not.

drip dip,rip,slip

Like a pixelated rain, drip drip.

Like a rounded frame, dip dip. 

The carelessness of others, rip rip rip.

The senselessness of self, slip slip slip.

Image by Benjamin Scharf

Tips in Adulthood

Rule # 1   : If you know it
                            It's your fault.
Rule # 2   : It's always your fault


Rule # 3   : Be and Maintain happiness
                            Sadness is your fault
Rule # 4   : Reponisbility is your fault
Rule # 5   : Obsession is image
                            Obsession is your fault.
Rule # 6   : Efficency is necessary.
                            Wanting is your fault.
Rule # 7   : You are a King and Queen
                            (now) it is your fault.
Rule # 8   : If you can't learn
                            It's your fault.
Rule # 9   : If you teach falsely
                             and    believe you do
                                   it's your fault.
Rule # 10 : If your faults make you happy

                   It's your fault.     

   

clear.

You All, righteous steady paced
                    patterns.
beings
    Blurry figurines all out to
                       prove their point.
    I had a seam to put of all to "all" together
     again, all too soon.

Should I go which way.
which way Could I go


Slow down you'll scare them
or freak 'em.
      

    Fuck em!

But if you cannot beat them

join 'em 

Doppel M & Ego

"i'm going to stop drinking mixed drinks, they're deceiving, and for women."

"haha.
...and only a woman should be deceived?"

"exactly."

far ties...

i seek.
i spit.
i lick.
I leak.

I get nauseous.
I'm healthy.
expectancy.

most of the time.

the cake talk>>>

F:"It's the best you made yet!"

P:"no no I don't think so it's.."
F: well i guess you can always make better
"I ate it at the perfect time, cooled down good state of mind
and the crust was warm."

J:"well the crust could be crustier."
P:"...ustier. I know! I was impatient again!


(laugh track)

Eve's dropping did not bother me.

"certain keys are certain sounds."
"how do you call these girls that work for a boss."
Secretaries?

<...>

"I was talking to the lady"

"where?"
"it was a job."

....
are you typing everything i'm saying?

австраля lumber co.

Left to right. Put it up, then, down. The excitement of a mechanical task has it's rewards. Biceps, triceps, hamstrings, and calves. Sometimes the task would take a surprising new turn. Right to Left. Old gloves put splinters in hands. Sweat in eyes. Acid in muscles. Anticipation in head. Strength & Fatigue. Strain & Ease. One time 150 of them were moved in only "The 8 hours of a day" given for this type of labor.

Task! An average of 62 is a lethally good number! 'Kill your Boss happy with numbers like that. A staff of 34, 16 chosen by hand by the Boss himself. Wakes up at 4's sunrise just to empower his pleasure to choose. Most of the staff lacks choices other than "left to right" & "up & down". Even if they go "Right to Left", it's a demanded new choice by Boss. The factory sits on a hill a few kilometers out of дарвин overlooking all of тиморское море. At last the Green has Sprung. Allergies Alive. Weeds Revived. "Just Looking out of the windows for a breath", while Boss is busy making other choices with his ever changing secretary list. They seem to carry the same legs, but not the type to pull through with a job like this. At least 11 staff have been successful to have a choice like Boss.

Some paid, some made no other choice for the secretary, or some were humorous. At least 9 or 10 of these successful staff with a choice had a choice made to them by Boss. Some paid-then fired, some never made a choice again, and some were made with closed doors, only to reveal the glazed, neurotic, depressed glare upon departure from Boss' Brown Hut.

The hut, in it's array of patched wood, was placed in back of the factory. Each year at least ⅜ths of it is/was rebuilt from weather conditions or careless architecture. The dirt around it mixed with sand & green, butts & leaves, wrappers & articles, empty drinks & foot "sink-ins", Prints & Sticks, and the occasional evidence form the secretarial rendezvous', shimmers. An average of 7½ show up on time, the rest get paid on hour less. Many hope for a raise. Many hope for praise. An Average of 6.9 of them go have a drink together after "left to right" & "up & down". Most get home to wives who've most spent their time hoping to be appreciated. Most get home hoping not to have to argue about this. Each of these "Most" have an average of 2.3 children.

Many homes in this area look the same or completely different. There was seemingly one to two architects building in this area and, with certainty, they purchased supplies from Boss. Boss at least seems happy when he's angry and sad.

An average of 4.7 wives come and meet for the strategically placed 6:30 happy hour. More than half the staff give glares to the other staff's wives without the wives' choice. The town's pulse thrives on any tradition they can find on T.V., magazines, & now (the possibility of) internet. Most have, of those who have left, did so because of the internet. австраля lumber co. even has it's own webpage. Not much to it.

The day it was made most made their way to the internet café next door to the happy hour. Most buy their substances there. Methamphetamine "C ₆ H ₅ CH ₂ CH(CH ₃)NH(CH ₃)", took an average of 2.7 of the staff's lives in the past 3 years.

After 11 years, since I left home to work here, I've avoided most of these statistics and it seems that Boss noticed. An average of 1.2 people get a raise in pay each year. It was nice to shake Boss' experienced, sunburnt hand.